Dil Ki Uljhanen: Prem, Sangharsh Aur Nai Shuruaat

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2013 mein, maine apni 12vi kaksha complete ki aur Amritsar ke Khalsa College mein Bachelor of Physiotherapy (BPT) ke liye pravesh mila. Bacpan se mujhe doctor banne ka gehra sapna tha, aur mujhe bahut khushi hui jab mujhe kai candidates ke beech akhri available seat mili. Pravesh lene ke baad, mujhe har din safar karna padta tha, lekin jaise hi sardiyon ka samay aaya, mujhe PG mein rehne bheja gaya. Mere maa-baap is vyavastha se khush nahi the, isliye main apni aunty ke paas rahne chala gaya, jo ki ghar se nazdeek tha.

Shuruat mein sab kuch naya aur overwhelming lag raha tha, par dheere-dheere maine is environment mein adjust kar liya. Mere aunty ke ghar mein meri cousin ki beti Maninder bhi thi, aur kabhi-kabhi Meeta bhi rehti thi. Main dono ke saath jaldi dosti kar li. Chaar saal pehle, mere uncle ne ek bade tragedy ka saamna kiya jab unki cousin aur unka pati ek sadak durghatna mein mar gaye. Unke do bacche bache rah gaye—theek se samajhdar ladki, Mandip, jo SR College ki B.Com mein topper thi, aur unka chhota bhai jo abhi 12vi kaksha mein tha. Mandip ka funeral par aansu behte dekhna mujhe gehra asar chhod gaya, mujhe unke liye bahut compassion mehsoos hua.

Jaise hi main aunty ke ghar mein set hua, maine aksar Mandip aur unke bhai ke baare mein Maninder aur Meeta se baat ki. 2013 ki Diwali par, Meeta mujhe Mandip ke parivaar se milne le gayi kyunki uska bhai Param aa raha tha. Us din se meri Param ke saath connection shuru hua. Jab Meeta ne mere phone se usse call kiya, tab humne numbers exchange kiye. Us din ke baad, jab bhi Meeta ko Param se baat karni hoti, woh mere phone se hi message bhejti thi.

Hamari baatein shuru mein casual thi; woh LPU mein B.Tech ki padhai kar raha tha. Jab bhi woh apne rishtedaron se weekend par milne jaata, woh meri aunty ke ghar bhi aata. Ek din, usne text ke zariye mujhe apne jazbat bataye. Maine bhi apne jazbat vyakt kiye kyunki main bhi uske liye gehri bhavnaon se bhari thi. Hum roz baatein karne lage, aur usne apni behan ko hamare rishte ke baare mein bhi bataya.

Lekin, muskilat tab shuru hui jab uski family ne chaha ki woh kisi aur se shaadi kare. Hamara rista majboot hota gaya, lekin uski behan Mandip ne insist kiya ki woh mujhe baat karna band kare. Is wajah se unke parivaar mein bada tanav ho gaya. Param apni family ki ummeedon aur mujhse apne jazbat ke beech chakkar mein tha.

Aakhirkar, ek din usne mujhe call kiya aur kaha ki woh behan ki wajah se mujhse baat nahi kar sakta. Mere dil toota hua tha, maine Mandip se samajhane ki koshish ki. Usne mujhe bataya ki unki maa chahati thi ki Param kisi aur ladki se shaadi kare aur usne aur kuch nahi kar sakti. Mere appeal par usne kaha ki mujhe Param ko bhool jana chahiye.

Emotional turmoil behad zyada tha; maine college jaana band kar diya aur kuch nahi khaya. Mere mental state kharab ho gaya, kyunki main Param se sampark karne ki koshish karte rahe jabki alag hone ka dard mehsoos kar rahi thi. Ek din jab main aunty ke ghar se bahar call karne gayi, to Mandip ne phone utha liya aur mujhe kadak keh diya ki agar main sambhal nahi sakti to mujhe mar jana chahiye.

Yeh pal mujhe edge par le gaya; niraasha aur udaasi ne mujhe itna dukh diya ki mujhe severe depression mein daal diya, jisse mujhe hospitalization ki zarurat padi. Mere maa-baap ne Guru Nanak Hospital ke psychiatric department mein mujhe admit karwaya jab unhone dekha ki meri halat kharab ho rahi hai.

Ek mahine tak main hospital mein rahi, jabki main breakup aur uske emotional distress se guzar rahi thi. Aakhirkar, kuch samay baad, maine faisla kiya ki mujhe khud aur apni padhai par dhyan dena hai.

Maine A.T.H.M program mein enrollment karwaya aur do mahine ki khamoshi ke baad dhire-dhire Param se phir se baat karna shuru kiya. Mujhe ye dekhkar surprise hua ki hamari baatein bilkul normal tarike se shuru hui, jaise kuch hua hi nahi. Lekin is baar, maine apne aap se vaada kiya: main khud ko phir se usi emotional trap mein nahi daalne dungi.

Agle chhe mahine mein, hamara rista sudhar gaya; woh hamare rishte ko lekar phir se serious hua, jabki uski family pehle ki tarah resistance dikhati rahi. Lekin abhi haal hi mein—sirf pandrah din pehle—mujhe ek mushkil faisla lena pada aur maine usse break up kar liya kyunki mujhe samajh aaya ki us par bhi emotional turmoil waapas aa gaya hai.

Ab woh wahi mehsoos kar raha hai jo maine pehle kiya tha; woh mere liye ro raha hai jaise main pehle royi thi. Is beech, maine college mein Ravi naam ka ek naya dost bana liya hai aur main apni zindagi ki is stithi se khush hoon.