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Mera name manoj rajpoot hai. Mai ek midill femaly se hu or grawjuate hu. Lekin kuch dino se pata nahi mujhe kaya ho gaya ki kuch bhi baat mujhe sahi tarike se yaad nahi rahti. Sirf ek pagal ladki ki wajah se pata nahi mera kya hoga age. Mai jila jhanshi (chirgown) u p ka rahne wala hu mujhe mere mohalle ke hi ladki jiska name sikha rajpoot hai. Usse kab payar ho gaya pata hi nahi chala sirf mujhe..

use huaa ho ya nahi bhagwaan jane wo jhanshi mai padti thi or mai kanpur mai jb garmi ki chhuttiya milti tab hum log bhi gawon mai mila karte the vo mujhe mud mud kar dekhti thi or paas aane par muskura deti or nazar niche jhuka leti thi or tab tak mud mud ke dekhti thi jab wah apne ghar mai na ghush jaye to hum is ada par bahut marte the suru mai itna junoon tha ki hum apno se bhi wagabat kar sakte the. Hamre ghar ke paas ek handpump hai jab kabhi bijali nahi aati to hum usi se pani bhara karte the.

Or vo bi hum aksar esa moka talaste the ki nal par koi na ho tab hame bat karne ka moka mil jata tha meri love ki suruaat 2010 se hui ye sab garmiyo ki chhuttiyo mai ho raha tha. Jab maine us se pahli baar baat ki to bahut achchh laga. Ek din vo mujhe nal par mili or kahne lagi rajesh bahut hi kharab ladka ha. Rajesh jo mere hi gown ka hai usne hawa faila di ki usne shika ke saath sub kuch kar liya jo sadi ke baad kiya jata hai. To maine socha ye sub baat mujhe kyo bata rahi hai tab mere dil mai kuch kuch huaa. Or maine kaha udane do salo ko jo such hai wo sub jante hai. Or tum mujhsn abi baat kar rahi ho isse bi log suk karege . Or karne do. Wo kahne lagi theek hai kahne do.

Or hamari baat ho jaya karti thi sirf gharelu or khuch nahi . Ek din maine himmat karke use ek kagaz par likh hi dala i like you or fone no or us kagaz ko uske samne fek diya or waha se baag gaya mujhe to dar lag raha tha kahi vo apne papa ko na bata de dil bahut jor se dhadka raha tha.fir thodi der mai fir mai wahi aya ki kagaz dala hai ya uta liya lekin wo waha nahi tha thoda achcha lag raha tha or kuch dar bi. Or sali suruaat ek dusre ko dekhne mai nikal gayi baat to majhu hi age badani thi vo kaise badati or ek din mai love letar uski friend ko diya. Par koi jabab nahi aya or jauly ka mahina aa gaya or wo padne ke liye jhansi jane lagi to mai baichain hone laga samajh mai nahi aa raha tha kaya kare. Jab vo jane lagi to mere tarf dekh rahi thi or muskara rahi thi to mai bus stand tak uske piche piche gaya or ab ki bar maine use apna mobile no uske samne feka to usne nahi uthaya or sirf meri tarf dekh rahi or muskara rahi thi or bus aa gyi or wo jane ke liye uthi or bus par chadne lagi to mujhe bahut bura laga or uski tarf se nazar hata li tabi vo bus se utari or vo kagaz uta kar chali gayi .to mai bada khush huaa lekin uske jane ka gum bhi tha. Or uski call ka intjar karne laga. Koi call nahi aya to maine samjha ki jab usko mobile milega tab mujh se baat kar legi.

Or 2 3 din mai bi kanpur chala gaya uske call ka intjar karne laga lekin koi call hi nahi aya or fir vo dashahre ke chhuttiyo mai ghar aayi to fir bise hi dekh rahi thi jaise pahle dekha karti thi to maine uski friend ko mobile diya or kaha usse baat kara de to uski friend ne meri baat karai to maine usse pucha call kyo nahi ki to usne mujhe kaha ese hi nahi ki or vo hus rahi tha or maine kaha ab kar liya karogi to vo kahne lagi ha kar liya karugi or vo fir padne ke liye jhansi chali gayi or 8din baad uska misscall aaya or meri baat hui or maine i love you kah dala to usne bhi 2 kaha mujhe bahut achcha laga or hamari 5ya 6 din mai ho jaya karti tb muhe or achcha lagne laga or mai kanpur se jhansi mai rahne aa gaya or jb vo collage jati to hum us time uske collage ke samne kade ho jate ye sub 2 month chala or fir mai 2mahine ke baad kanpur aa gaya or uska call ana band ho gaya tab maine uski frend ko kaha ki call nahi aya kafi din ho gye or usi beech mera fone no bhi compny walo ne reject kar diya kyo ki usme dosro ki id lagi thi or maine uska sahi se verifacation nahi kara paya tha jab compeny ka call aya tha.

Or jaldi se maine dusra no liya or uski friend ko diya jo roz jhansi up down karti thi to usne dusre din kaha ki usne no fad ke faik diya fir maine use later likha or no bi to fir usne mujhe bataya ki usne fad diya mujhe mano 440 volt ka carennt lag gaya ho or mujhe rona aa gaya do teen din tak rota raha or fir kanpur chala gaya waha sirf toda sa khana kha ke sara din leta rahta tha or kuch nahi 15- 15 din tak nahata nai tha or pada rahta bistar sirf ek hi sad song sunta rahta .”’mandir tute to ban jaye or masjid tute to ban jaye .par mohhabat bhara dil jo tute to sari umar jud na paye .kisi ka dil na todna kisi ka dil na todna”” bus yahi song sunta rahta tha. or iswar 2011 ka akhiri din tha new year ki party rakkhi thi dosto ne to mujhe lene ki liye aye to maine mana ka diya jane se or kah diya meri tabiyat sahi nahi hai . Lekin thodi der mai sare dost aa gye or mujhe jabrd